Trumpcare dead!? GOP has lost two more votes! Open Thread

Thanks everyone. The kind words helped a lot.

I slept on it, and it still hurts like hell – actually it hurts more now, probably because at least I had all of that stuff in my system yesterday night. I may have a cracked sternum, and I don’t know what the hell is up with my hip but it’s not pleasant.

I’m also cold, and I’m not sure what to think of that. It’s not really cold right now (though for once it’s also not scalding hot) but I’m having pretty uncontrollable shivers. Could that be a side-effect of something ?

I’d like to go to a hospital but that’s probably not such a good idea. It is a fast track to getting my own ass arrested or at the very least filed, and I can’t afford to make myself visible in this town if I wanna keep having access to the stuff I need to sleep. I’m gonna see what I can do with the doctors I know and trust, because it definitely hurts enough to worry me.

This is why I don’t go out anymore though. I mean I was trying to come out of my cave, but I might as well just stay put. It’s not the first time something this stupid happens, but it’s definitely the fucking last. I’ve always gotten along much more easily with women, and it’s always made men suspicious, and they’ve always then proceeded to show me exactly why it is I get along with women but not men. I’m done ever stepping outside again, fuck having a social life, it’s just not worth all the bullshit. They can have all the insecurity crises they want, but far away from me, fucking please. I’m tired of getting my ass beaten by “friends” who drink all my beer, smoke all my hash and take out their own feelings of inadequacy on me.

@John, Dalilama: You’re not the only two here that get along much better with women than with men.

@John (and David): Mend soon.

<3 my ducks. You don't deserve any of that, John or Dalillama. No one does. Don't feel bad about not sharing, or deciding to not go out and socialize again. If you feel the urge to again, maybe try to avoid socializing in places where beer and hash is even a question? Like, go do some yoga or something. I hope you can stock up soon :s

@Fabe, yeah, orange is NDP. They're likely to have the biggest chance of keeping out the conservatives.

I’ve always gotten along much more easily with women

Same here, I’ve always felt more comfortable around women and have never really felt comfortable at all around guys (even when I was trying to pretend to be one). And when you look (or are) male and get along more easily with women, holy fuck does that just bring out the massive insecurity issues and macho bullshit.

John I’m really sorry to hear about that! I hope you feel better. Echoing what everyone said, you aren’t a bad person or a bad feminist. You seem like a really good guy, dealing with some shitty situations.

Good for trying to go out and have some social time, I’m sorry the person who SHOULD have been a friend is an utter ass.

Good luck with the doctors you said you could trust.

Just… Good luck.

http://ct.iscute.com/ol/ic/sw/i60/2/1/20/ic_60a77de39abb4ae6ed7300b1fbb77c7b.jpg

Oh, yes, the cold. That’s normal, John. That’s a normal shock response, it’s purely a biological thing. Your body’s got all those stress hormones running through it, and it’s going to make you jittery. That’s going to make your brain think “I’m cold”, even if you actually aren’t cold. So your brain is just playing tricks on you!

Happens to everyone, nothing to worry about. Rest and get well as best you can!

@ dalillama

I’ve seriously been hit by way too many fucking cars, though.

What’s going on? Are you like the future leader of the human resistance when driverless cars reach full sentience or something?

Popping in to say:

@John, that is absolutely horrible what happened to you. I hope you know that you did not deserve that at all and you are not a bad feminist at all. From my vantage point you are a good man. I hope you are okay and please do go see a doc you trust. We don’t want anything worse to happen to you. Hugs and buckets of kittens and soft fuzzy thing if you need them.

(So apparently my comment showed up and then disappeared ? Oh well, here it is again.)

You guise :’D

I was super bitter until this afternoon when it started to sink in (the good kind of sinking in). That never would’ve happened without all the kind messages, thank you all.

I’m not gonna deny my instinct to share just because it got me in a shitty situation yet again. Sure, people take advantage of it, but fuck ’em. Just because some asshole had a lot of drinks and smokes on me doesn’t mean everyone else who has is also an asshole. “First rule of bartending is to kick out the assholes so that all the decent folks can enjoy their time in peace” – that’s not something I should forget so easily but I almost did. (there’s a second rule but it’s forbidden to speak it)

I’m also not gonna go back straight into hermit mode for another year like I always do. That crap has robbed me of too many years already and I’m not gonna live forever. Getting broken bones (and heart) from “friends” is usually what causes it, but it doesn’t have to be like this. Or at least I have better things to do than reenact that violence some more while turning it inward.

Good news is, I managed to scrounge a little bit of The Stuff out of my desk drawer and I reckon it hasn’t even been sitting there for more than a week. I gots me some beer, and tonight I’ma hog it aaaaall to myself !

Re : cold, that has to be it, yeah. In the middle of the afternoon I was also hit by a massive wave of THE TIREDS, probably for the same reason. I’m hoping to ride that until bedtime – I didn’t find a lot of the stuff but it should be enough to put me to sleep if I’m tired enough. Fingers crossed though, won’t be any extras tonight even if I need one.

@Scildfreja

If you feel the urge to again, maybe try to avoid socializing in places where beer and hash is even a question?

Wait, there are other kinds of places ?

More seriously, I would, but… well, I’d stick out like a sore thumb pretty much anywhere else. I kinda need the beer and hash right now, because of social anxiety, and there aren’t a lot of places where these are considered acceptable. Actually, there aren’t a lot of places where I am considered acceptable. I kind of only belong among reprobates of my ilk. And that’s not such a bad thing ! I just need to find a way to avoid the toxic elements – they’re the problem, as always, as with everywhere else. The setting itself doesn’t matter that much.

@Dali

I mostly don’t hang with dudes anymore.

Same – I guess I need to stop being liberal with my exceptions.

Well, right now I don’t hang with anyone anymore though. Oh hey, that’s what I was just trying to fix ! Oh, wait…

@Sinkable John : Pansy Ass Pinko, Regicidal Beast-of-Burden
Glad to hear you’re doing better buddy. Your courage to continue being you no matter what is exemplary. Also what up no irl matey
d(￣∇￣)b.

EDIT: To Hell With It
Remember a few pages ago where I was happy to be employed after a year of joblessness? Well I just got done contacting the police and my bank. The “job” was a scam to embezzle money using me as the middleman. Fuck you Snagajob.com, just fuck you. Well at least I managed to stop them before any money changed hands. Thank goodness for being an Asian Male, no one considers asian people as suspicious characters these days. I think it also helped that I was probably the only Asian person in the entire Police Department Building.

My only hire in a year after dozens of applications and calls, and it was not even real, just a scam to sucker desperate fools like me. I’m a goddamn gullible moron. So much for my Asian Intellect.

@Sinkable John

I’m glad you’re doing better. Keep on keepin on.

@ooglyboggles

Well, that is terrible. At least you caught quickly, so you and others were not taken advantage of. I hope your renewed job search goes well.

@Oogly

My only hire in a year after dozens of applications and calls, and it was not even real, just a scam to sucker desperate fools like me. I’m a goddamn gullible moron.

From where I’m standing, what you are is the guy who stopped ’em.

What Alan said. They don’t need you to be gullible. After all, there’s no way to tell if a job offer that seems legit is actually shady, and everyone assumes it’s legit.

So sure, any fool can get suckered into some bullshit. But the way I see it, it takes a little bit more to be the fool that puts an end to it.