Well, this is pretty freaking disturbing. Metronews.ca reports that
Toronto police are looking closely at video of a Toronto pick-up artist who filmed himself muttering about stabbing a girl who turned him down. …
“She deserves to f**kin’ like stabbed and cut up into tiny pieces for that s**t,” he says. “Like, I would f**king take her and her boyfriend and all her f**king friends down. F**king worthless pieces of s**t. She thinks she’s all that, just because she has the looks and s**t. I’ll show all these little bitches one day.”
In a second clip, [“xsouldeath”] appears to try to purchase a knife from a grocery store.
After news of this began to spread, someone who described himself as
E.J., the head coach of TdotPickup, a group that holds PUA bootcamps and coaching in the Yonge and Dundas area, called Metro Monday evening after speaking with xsouldeath. He said some of his comments had been misunderstood.
“This whole thing about getting them back, all he was talking about is basically getting them back by getting a really good-looking girl and rubbing it in their face,” he said.
Apparently, there is some mysterious language that resembles English in which “she deserves to f**kin’ like stabbed and cut up into tiny pieces for that s**t” actually means “rubbing it in their face.”
As for talking about stabbing a woman and cutting her up, E.J. said xsouldeath is not the type of person to do that.
So reassuring.
The video in which xsouldeath talks about looking for a knife at a grocery store was taken out of context, E.J. said. “Basically the whole reason he was asking for this knife was to find the cutlery section and they were not really understanding the English,” he said.
And then there was this plot twist:
Update: xsouldeath, the creator of the YouTube videos, appears to be EJ, the head coach of TdotPickup.
Creepy as hell.
While xsouldeath’s YouTube channel has been taken down, what appears to be his Google+ profile is still up (I’ve archived it here). In addition to posts about his own videos and a wide assortment of popular Youtube “prank” videos, xsouldeath posts videos from other PUAs as well as from antifeminist “philosopher” and self-described Men’s Rights Activist Stefan Molyneux and from obsessively antifeminist Youtuber Bane666au, whose frequently hour-long videos feature him as a talking skull in a pitcher of Koolaid.
What appears to be his Twitter account has been made private.
On the Toronto subreddit, meanwhile, someone writes:
I’ve known this person since High School. There are some stories I would rather not share about him on this page to save him dignity. But he needs Help. I am just really creeped out to approach him anymore.
I’ll post more later as the story develops.
Oh, shit. I just now made the connection – maybe the reason I’m so tired all the damned time is the mono relapsing again.
Fuck. My doctor retired. How on earth can I ever get this properly diagnosed now?
Tracy,
I’m glad it isn’t just me.
I had a sort of “Ah-ha!” moment once when I was up all night crying. Everything I thought of to try to distract myself had something depressing about it. I could not get out of the cycle of trying and failing to get over it and I wasn’t sure what “it” was. But failing made “it” worse.
Then I laid eyes on ( of all things) a roll of paper towels and I swear I could “feel” my mind try to find something horrible about it to torture me with. I laughed. Nothing so mundane could be a reason to feel that bad. I could almost hear the gears of the depression machine locking up. It was such a relief because it showed me that nothing was really wrong outside of my perception of it being wrong. It wasn’t me being mopey or self-pitying. Everything about the world and me was not a hopeless shitastrophy. It was something wonky in my head. That meant I was going to be OK. Paper towels. That was what may have saved my life.
…and I still think that’s funny. It’s so ordinary. Why didn’t I miss it? Because life is ridiculous and weird things happen for no reason at all but that they just do. If that’s not the soul of humor, I don’t know what is.
POM,
I hope you’re OK. I’m sorry you have to worry about not being treated. It’s bad enough to be sick. You shouldn’t have to deal with stigma on top of that.
I won’t even try to tell you how ridiculously true this rings for me.
I will be. If this is a relapse (I’ve had 2 before, and it feels the same) it will go away in a month or two. There isn’t really a lot to be done about it, medically, but it’s nice to have a piece of paper with a doctor’s signature on it for those times when lots of energy is called for and I can’t summon it. You know, like sometimes happens at work.
@PoM
I don’t know how happy you are with your current doctor or even if you want to go through with this, but maybe you can ask your psychiatrist about doctors that are, you know, competent? I’m sure they know at least one doctor that doesn’t think it’s all in the patient’s head.
@Jackie
I have. My psychiatrist is actually kind of old and semi-retired. The general practitioners he knows are mainly also retired or semi-retired and not accepting patients. :/ He knows lots of specialists, and referred me to a good orthopedist once, but we came up empty on GPs.
@POM – That sounds terribly frustrating, not to mention dangerous.
“Young, poor, female” – that reminds me of an experience, not as serious, but maybe on the same theme?
When I was at the clinic two years ago for worrying gastrointestinal symptoms (gas, constipation, cramps) I also told the doctor there that I’d been having worse pains before my period than ever before.
The doctor, a man, said something like: “Oh, but it’s normal to have menstrual cramps. A lot of women…” etc., as if he didn’t just hear me say that it hadn’t been that painful before.
Maybe I’m assuming things, but it seemed like he was just lumping me into some “women are like this” category without noting the change in pain levels, which is something doctors are supposed to take note of. I mean, usually that shit MEANS something.
(Thankfully it was just lactose intolerance. I changed what I eat/drink – lactose-free milk is expensive, so I usually just have it at breakfast – and I’m mostly feeling better now.)
@PoM
Goddamn. I’m sorry. I figured you may have already tried. I really hope you don’t have to get the run around…again. Maybe you can find a website or something that shows mentally ill-friendly doctors in your area?
Maybe I should just try stopping to help because you didn’t ask for it. ><
Interesting fact: lactose-free milk isn’t actually lactose-free. They add lactase, the enzyme that breaks down lactose, Anyway.
@epitome
Huh, didn’t know that. Kinda a misnaming, although I guess lactose enzyme rich milk doesn’t roll off the tongue like lactose free. It also explains why it doesn’t taste as funky as you’d think it would, if actual lactose-free milk does taste funny.
@epitome
Yah, it’s dangerous. Which is one of the many, many reasons I have zero patience for people who think that equating madness with whatever has a bee in their bonnet today is just fine. The link between “I use the word crazy for anything that doesn’t make sense” and “crazy people make no sense” is an extremely short and sturdy one. Crazy people are killed by medical malpractice all the time because they say stuff and aren’t believed.
@Jackie
It’s okay. 😀 I, too, have the helper gene and I know how it is.
Are there things like walk-in clinics where you live, or is it that they exist and are ridiculously expensive? I’ve gotten referrals from one, though that isn’t the same as having a GP. (In Quebec the CLSCs are free – the waiting time can be punishing, though).
@Pandapool – It doesn’t taste that much different to me – maybe a bit sweeter?
@epitome
The problem is not finding a doctor, but finding one who will take me seriously after seeing Seroquel on my medication list. I could get an appointment to see a doctor tomorrow, but the idea of shopping around for one who won’t blow me off is exhausting (which is why I haven’t done it yet).
@PoM
@Lea
For my self, the worst part of interacting with the healthcare system was just before I got diagnosed with depression and was suicidal and were rapidly running out of things to distract my mind with. When ever we (me and may flatmate) called the Psychiatric Emergency the script they apparently had where:
Have you had these kind of thoughts before? If so did you find anything to distract yourself with? Have you tried that? Then they hanged up.
Luckily I have now found a therapist that cares allot.
@PoM
@epitome
Oh, hey, that’s something. Maybe PoM can take a “vacation” to Canada and “happen” to “need” to go to the hospital. Maybe our Canadian friends would “know” of an “area” that happens to “have” some “decent doctors”.
Lol, no, I’m kidding.
Unless that’s a good idea.
But otherwise I’m kidding.
But if it goes well, you know who gave you the idea.
The funny, jokey idea.
Ha ha.
http://31.media.tumblr.com/0402ca3821266581affd88022743b0a4/tumblr_n97b6qWIdM1qeyb9ho1_500.gif
@Lanariel
Holy hell. That is about the worst possible thing to say and at the worst possible time! I am flabbergasted.
I did call a suicide helpline once and they literally sent people to my house to be with me. It was actually more than I wanted and overwhelming, but I’d take that over “well, hope it works out for you! *click*” any day of the week.
@epitome
I haven’t had actually milk in years because 1) I had accidentally
dranksipped spoiled milk a couple of times so I kinda stopped drinking it and 2) recently figured out I was lactose intolerant so now I actually never have to drink regular milk again, so I don’t really remember what actual milk tastes like, but lactose enzyme enriched milk is pretty alright. Although now I can’t have ice cream, but, you know, it’s better not to have it than be in pain and shitting myself. And I only take lactose enzymes when I have to eat things with lactose in it because I really don’t want to take a pill just so I can eat food, especially food I don’t really need, like cheese and stuff. Although I do miss cheese.Re: healthcare
Don’t forget if you’re overweight or a body type that is generally considered to be too heavy! Then you get the fun of doctors immediately assuming everything that’s wrong with you is just a symptom of how fat you are!
Moving onto another topic, apparently the ‘finding random mundane thing inexplicably hilarious’ is a reasonably common occurrence with depression? Allie from hyperbole and a half also describes that happening, along with a very informative(and morbidly entertaining) description of depression.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.ca/2013/05/depression-part-two.html
Hey, do you ever notice how the vast majority of people who pee in urinals are men? Clearly men must be biologically driven to urinate in weird porcelain sink-like objects, because there is no such thing as a learned behaviour, only instincts and hormonal urges.
There is further proof in this that the vast majority of men who do not pee in urinals are either toddlers, extremely elderly men, or drunk men, because toddlers and old men don’t have the same hormones as adult men do, and alcohol screws up your hormones. I don’t have a link or studies to prove that, but it totally makes sense, right? Can you feel the truthiness?
Lea-Congrats on finally getting a correct diagnoses and congratz on feeling much better and kicking so much butt! I am a little angry at the doctors, though. Why did it take so long to diagnose something as basic as anaemia and vitamin D deficiency? I have vitamin D deficiency as well as hypothyroidism and I have experienced how physical conditions can cause depression. Luckily for me I managed to get the hypothyroidism diagnosed early. I was experiencing some very unusual symptoms and thyroid function was just one of the many things they tested for. I was experiencing numbness and tingling in my mouth, and in one hand and arm. If it wasn’t for that, I probably would never have been tested and I would have ended up on antidepressants. The funny thing is they never found out what caused those symptoms and I never had anything like it again. 😀
>XSoulDeath
I’m sorry. I know this is horrifying, but I can’t stop loling at how edgy that name is. He makes Bismuth look like a cotton ball.
CrawlingInMySkin/10
Also, you’ve got to be a special breed of stupid to post that on a YouTube video and not expect to be questioned by the police.
To all the people who think that being disallowed from using a small handful of words on exactly one website is tantamount to Orwellian censorship:
If you, personally, donate a few dollars or help lobby the government of your country for better mental health care, I’ll drop my dissent. If you truly believe that these people need help and aren’t just othering them, then what do you have to lose? And hell, America’s mental health system in particular needs all the help it can get.
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Hello?
http://i.imgur.com/IxGE5F7.gif
Lea, I might be completely off-base and this might be unwelcome but – I noticed you mentioning you were limber. Have you ever read about hypermobility syndrome/ehlers-danlos? I’ve seen some of my fellow bendies mention muscle spasms as a problem for them.
Ugh, regarding doctors and obesity. They tend to assume obese people are simply ignorant of portion sizes and/or lack willpower. I could probably rattle off portions and approx calories faster than they can look them up.
Oh and god forbid you have a nuanced question.
I told this story once before, but figure this is a good time to repeat it. I had lost significant weight. I think I was down 80-100lbs. My doctor said “This is gonna sound terrible, but you look human now.”. I was too stunned to respond. He wasn’t even bad on this subject. However, some of that might be that I was able to demonstrate my knowledge early on and so he didn’t start off as condescending.
Another time I remember being prescribed Metformin and low dose aspirin by the same doctor. When I asked about the fact that metformin and NSAIDs counteract each other, I was given a printout from Wikipedia that said aspirin was a salicylate. While true, this doesn’t mean it is not also an NSAID. This doctor was a hospitalist who was unfamiliar with me and never saw a problem he couldn’t throw a pill at. I walked out of the hospital with 7 scripts and 2 scripts for OTC things, vitamins and fish oil.
Mine are so minor compared to the shit others have described here though. Luckily, my issues have always been obviously symptomatic.