Yeah, it’s an aloe vera, so not exactly the most demanding of plants. Fortunately, we have a friend nearby who has promised to take good care of it.
Just bleh. “Reasonable wages,” my ass.
And apparently when I have angst, I write Infinity Smashed. Oh well, it could be worse, I suppose…
Oh, in cooler news, a new fan of mine is making me a Facebook fan page, in the hopes of gaining me new fans! So that’s nice. Tomorrow, when I won’t be sniveling and miserable, I plan to okay it.
Skittish didn’t survive the transfer. Only change on not-so-skittish’s behavior is less hovering and more exploring, which is a good thing, but… *shakes head*
Anyone here ever had figure 8 puffers? Is it true that they leave bumblebee gobies alone? (Yeah I know the gobies would need live food, but somehow the idea of breeding seamonkeys just isn’t striking me as difficult)
Viscaria
11 years ago
My grandpa just died. I could really use e-hugs if anybody has any e-hugs.
Thanks guys. We knew it was coming but it is still really hard.
grumpycatisagirl
11 years ago
Yeah, expecting it doesn’t make it easy.
hellkell
11 years ago
I’m so sorry, Viscaria. Many e-hugs.
Viscaria
11 years ago
*Hugs back*
I have one of my few really good IRL friends coming to stay with me this weekend, for unrelated reasons. On the one hand it kind of sucks because I won’t be quite the host I was planning to be, but on the other hand it is great because there will be many hugs and grief-relieving milkshakes.
Viscaria, I’m so sorry. Lots of hugs from Mr K and me.
Fibinachi
11 years ago
That sucks.
I’m sorry. Have as many e-hugs from the supply as you feel you need. They’re yours.
Viscaria
11 years ago
Not trying to revive this thread (this has been more than enough and more than I expected). I just wanted to say thank you, again, to everyone. Your support is overwhelming and it really helped me get through yesterday.
I left California a few days ago and flew over here to Colorado – I’m visiting my mom for about three weeks. The day before I left was absolutely horrible.
I found out that my aunts and uncles, in whom I had confided about how I don’t like the way my father treats me, decided to tell my father that I’ve been complaining about him – more specifically, that I’m averse to him. And he also got furious at me because he found out about me not sending a financial aid form to UCSC on time. In truth, my “procrastination” resulted purely from my mixed feelings about going to UCSC because I just really don’t want to go to university while continuing to live with him and/or still within his control (of course I still want to go to university some time in my life). He got so angry at me that I felt like he wanted to beat me up, something he’s often threatened to do to me before.
I know that sending a financial aid form late is bad, but it was mostly out of conflicted feelings, not lethargy. His behavior was so overbearing and frightening that he gave me a panic attack. I went through a panicking episode in which I lamented about being a horrible person, being ungrateful and unlikable, ruining everyone’s lives because of stressing everyone out about my transness, never being able to completely get away from bigoted family members, etc. And on top of that I felt unsafe and very vulnerable – fortunately my father calmed down later on and decided to not be threatening for some unknown reason. What I’m most grateful for is the fact that he wasn’t around during my panic attack – and my older brother helped me calm down and supported me. He told me to breathe deeply, and for the first time in ages it actually helped me calm down.
Ever since I left California, I’ve been feeling much better. Everyone in this house is loving and supportive, and my father isn’t here to make me feel anxious and stressed. Most notably, I now have another opportunity to go shopping for women’s clothes, foundation, etc. – something I haven’t had in months because of work reducing a huge amount of my free time. And now that I’m only with people who are accepting of me, I’m finally going to start my voice training. I really wish I could stay longer than three weeks, but hopefully all of this time will be enough to regenerate and regain some self-esteem.
We Hunted The Mammoth
Yeah, it’s an aloe vera, so not exactly the most demanding of plants. Fortunately, we have a friend nearby who has promised to take good care of it.
Just bleh. “Reasonable wages,” my ass.
And apparently when I have angst, I write Infinity Smashed. Oh well, it could be worse, I suppose…
Oh, in cooler news, a new fan of mine is making me a Facebook fan page, in the hopes of gaining me new fans! So that’s nice. Tomorrow, when I won’t be sniveling and miserable, I plan to okay it.
Writing Biff while having an angst actually sounds like a good idea. As for your relatives *paired middle fingers*
Fan page!
Skittish didn’t survive the transfer. Only change on not-so-skittish’s behavior is less hovering and more exploring, which is a good thing, but… *shakes head*
Anyone here ever had figure 8 puffers? Is it true that they leave bumblebee gobies alone? (Yeah I know the gobies would need live food, but somehow the idea of breeding seamonkeys just isn’t striking me as difficult)
My grandpa just died. I could really use e-hugs if anybody has any e-hugs.
I have e-hugs for you! Sorry for your loss.
So sorry, Viscaria. All the e-hugs.
Thanks guys. We knew it was coming but it is still really hard.
Yeah, expecting it doesn’t make it easy.
I’m so sorry, Viscaria. Many e-hugs.
*Hugs back*
I have one of my few really good IRL friends coming to stay with me this weekend, for unrelated reasons. On the one hand it kind of sucks because I won’t be quite the host I was planning to be, but on the other hand it is great because there will be many hugs and grief-relieving milkshakes.
1) **all the hugs**
2) “really good IRL friends” =/= does not care what sort of host you are
3) **more hugs**
Ergh, bad Argenti >.<
Please ditch one of the negatives in my double negative.
E-hugs from me, too, Viscaria. =[ My condolences.
I am sending all of my hugs to Viscaria. So sorry about your grandfather.
Thank you everyone. Thank you for letting me unload. 🙂
Oh, Viscaria, I’m sorry. I’m glad you’ll be having a friend coming over soon to help you out.
I’m so sorry Viscaria. All the e-hugs to you.
So sorry, Viscaria. That’s rough, even when you’re expecting it.
*hugs* Viscaria it is always really hard to lose a loved one:(
So sorry Viscaria.
Even when there’s no surprise, there’s still the shock.
Let your friend be a friend, not just a guest.
Viscaria, I’m so sorry. Lots of hugs from Mr K and me.
That sucks.
I’m sorry. Have as many e-hugs from the supply as you feel you need. They’re yours.
Not trying to revive this thread (this has been more than enough and more than I expected). I just wanted to say thank you, again, to everyone. Your support is overwhelming and it really helped me get through yesterday.
Necroing htread because I don’t
[Content Note: aggressiveness, violence, panic attacks]
I left California a few days ago and flew over here to Colorado – I’m visiting my mom for about three weeks. The day before I left was absolutely horrible.
I found out that my aunts and uncles, in whom I had confided about how I don’t like the way my father treats me, decided to tell my father that I’ve been complaining about him – more specifically, that I’m averse to him. And he also got furious at me because he found out about me not sending a financial aid form to UCSC on time. In truth, my “procrastination” resulted purely from my mixed feelings about going to UCSC because I just really don’t want to go to university while continuing to live with him and/or still within his control (of course I still want to go to university some time in my life). He got so angry at me that I felt like he wanted to beat me up, something he’s often threatened to do to me before.
I know that sending a financial aid form late is bad, but it was mostly out of conflicted feelings, not lethargy. His behavior was so overbearing and frightening that he gave me a panic attack. I went through a panicking episode in which I lamented about being a horrible person, being ungrateful and unlikable, ruining everyone’s lives because of stressing everyone out about my transness, never being able to completely get away from bigoted family members, etc. And on top of that I felt unsafe and very vulnerable – fortunately my father calmed down later on and decided to not be threatening for some unknown reason. What I’m most grateful for is the fact that he wasn’t around during my panic attack – and my older brother helped me calm down and supported me. He told me to breathe deeply, and for the first time in ages it actually helped me calm down.
Ever since I left California, I’ve been feeling much better. Everyone in this house is loving and supportive, and my father isn’t here to make me feel anxious and stressed. Most notably, I now have another opportunity to go shopping for women’s clothes, foundation, etc. – something I haven’t had in months because of work reducing a huge amount of my free time. And now that I’m only with people who are accepting of me, I’m finally going to start my voice training. I really wish I could stay longer than three weeks, but hopefully all of this time will be enough to regenerate and regain some self-esteem.
First sentence should be “Necroing this open thread since it’s the only one up and active”